things have been done but I have been professional about this, I feel guilty but shouldnt put my emotions in front of what needs to be done. This may be the wake up call he needs the thing is hes being nice to me now so im unsure of what to do excatly the reports are going out tommorrow so i cant let the team down.

Apologies to anyone who read that 1st post, this 'situation' i am writing about is about my boss and the way he treats me, i get worked up so i write my feelings and thoughts down here, sometimes most of it is random and the spelling isnt too great, i write what im thinking if that makes any sense but yeah have a read....


There is something relaxing about classical music, depending on what stuff you listen to of course.
I have managed to get another interview for another place with help from a certain few people, i really dont want to be there anymore.
This weekend has just been the final straw. He is so patronizing and infuriating, when im clearly stating a fact and saying what i would do and he says "dont answer back to me", and "go on your break now" like wtf i can go on my break whenever i fucking want to! you were the one sticking your nose into my business it was nothing to do with him anyways the customer accepted the answer i gave them and moved on, they have a life unlike you, you fucking prick....
wow he annoys me i have to take shit loads of kalms and then get some herbal tea i was shaking thats how angry i was and i just didnt talk to him for the rest of the day he tried to spin some jokes and try and get me to laugh but i wasnt having any of it, i know it may seem a little childish but i know that i would of said or did something that i would of regreated if i chosen a different way to resove the situation or at least not let it get out of hand.
I gave him the chance to say sorry or even talk about but ofcourse hes so subborn he would never think of doing that or even think about what hes doing to me. ive been talking to people and my other half has said about going to the doctors just to see if i have got like something wrong with me i guess. stress thats what it is and its all because of him! i must thank her for all what she has done for me, listened and all the advice and all, means a lot.

I do have all of the other members of staff behind me tho which is a nice feeling, its not just me that hes pissing off/upsetting with his mood swings and general patronizing behaviour, its everyone, noone really has a good word to say about him, its funny in a way how he tries to be nice but everyone hasnt got any respect well not respect but time for him, ill be gone from that place soon and hell have to explain to his superiors why another one of his supervisors has left 'all of a sudden' i know what your going to say complain to the company and all that, its been done before so nothing will get done but ill do it anyway whats one more complaint against him going to do, never know it may change him, im just tired of it, trying to find something to talk about, like anything, just to make the longest 10 hours of my life go faster i guess i shouldnt look at the clock every 10 seconds. But there isnt much to do around the store either thats the thing theres only a certain amount of hours you can face up or clean a store or listen to the same CDs over and over again untill the painstaking noise that he calls music turns into a drone and then finally it stops and then he presses play and it starts all of again but now i bring my charger to work so i put my phone on and have a healthy variety of non depressive music that customers and most importantly staff alike enjoy!
It was however very good to see the full timer after the weekend i had, almost like a breath of fresh air so calm and happy ofcourse oblivious to what had happened between myself and the manager (the full timer not working this weekend) but he could see there was something wrong but i couldnt say because the manager was there, HE was there. I find it strange how he listens to the full timer and not me i guess because the full timer doesnt take shit where as im more passive in my approach to situation, although i do look up to the full timer for standing up for me and defending me on countless times, always makes me wonder what it would be like if he was supervisor instead of me, it would just be interesting.

In conclusion i have several possiable job interviews lined up/ places im going to had my CV into, so wish my good luck... and ill write more when the time comes. Or when i get pissed off again

The thing that confuses me the most is hes being nice to me now, just wonder how long it will last, i think he knows that im looking for a new job! i was unsuccessful in my manager job which i am a little down about but doesnt matter still a little bit of experiance just means i have to put up with my job a little longer, i feel mentaly drained whenever i work with him as i have to make conversation and when i do its always a one word answer for example i ask him what he did last night any other person would say o yeah i went out and did this and that or i watched tv and played a game but he just says "i slept" and thats it, thats all i get! really annoys me then he wonders why i dont talk to him and he calls me depressed but doesnt tell me to my face goes around my back and asks everyone else if they have spoken to me and that if they know im alright or not? like what the hell? he always puts me down too like with everything i say or do i swear he just doesnt like seeing people happy! saying to other people that im useless and im not a very good supervisor, what kind of person says that, i like im a very good supervisor might not be the best but im only human so much pressure he puts me under, im taking pills for it too and he knows it and jokes around like its funny im on theses pills because of you! the guy puts me under so much stress at work not even allowing to my job properly and then conplains that i havent done it properly, its just made me resent him is that the right word? ive lost all respect for him and when he talks about his life and hes experiances (at uni which happened like 5 years ago) just bores me i dont want to seem nasty or bitter but i never was this way he made me feel this way towards him!
my confidence has dropped too, im well in descive now and always quite i guess when im a work he always puts me down and that fucking stare he does just like stares at you and frowns! like what the hell is that? is that suppose to make me bow down at your feet or something!?? my friends say hes got Short Man syndrome hes just so depressing and hes stories dont make any sense or have any point as in they dont follow on to what other people are talking about! i dread the days im working with him i would say i was scared but i feel Intimidated by him just the way he is towards me, like one minute hes talking we are having a joke then all of a sudden he turns and just gruts i just dont get what it is!

A very good friend of mine says hes just a test of character but im unsure i think he hates me or is envy of me! i do look forward to seeing the good friend at the weekend becuase he knows excalty where im coming from as this guy treats him the same way if not worse i just dont know how he does it, i think its mostly the companys fault, he has had countless conplaints customers and pervious staff alike.. and nothing has been done that has to be bad!
This whole situation is also putting a strain on my relationship with my fiancée, the negative engry he gives off just bonces off me and then i become negative and take it out on my fiancée i dont mean to be like it, it just happens.

But anyway as i said at the start of this post... hes been really nice to me and im confused like seriously asking if i would like a coffee from the cafe and talking to me and making conversation but you know when you get that doupt in your mind that hes almost fake! and im unsure of how to go about it, im just unsure to why the sudden change, maybe he knows about my job hunting? or maybe other people have complained about him i just dont know!

ok rant over ill just see how it goes....

Well hello

I havent been on this site for a few years now so I thought as ive been doing art why not update my dev account, as you may know i moved to somerset i know live near london and work full time, ive also got my own clothing line coming soon (still working on the designs) i got about 15 designs 3 that im happy with

I still do random shots with cameras and all ( I know you guys loved that) but i havent done any poem lately

It would be good to get back in touch with the people i used to talk to on here, i miss you all dearly so if your reading this give us a message or something it would be nice to hear from you.

For future art ill have to keep you posted im currently working on my designs and thats it. I may have some photos for you ill keep you posted!

Hey everyone

Merry Xmas and Happy New Year people! x